My oh my how the years have flown by. I realize it's been 2 years since I posted on this mandatory-for-class-credit blog, but I figured I'd start updating this more regularly now that I'm a COLLEGE GRAD! Right now I want to talk about this never ending, summer break forever, college is over, state of mind. I have read endless blog entries about post-grad life. Some bloggers seem to have their lives perfectly mapped out-- from their Europe trip to their new job selling insurance or getting accepted to grad school. Other bloggers seem to have no clear direction for their future, and they note that it's okay to not know-- just live, relax, enjoy. Bliss. Well... While I have more in common with the latter blogger, my impatience and anxiety won't let me be. I realize it's okay to not have concrete plans for my future, because most likely, the plans I conjure up in my head are not the plans God has for me. I would love for a stone tablet to come crashing down before me with my life plans illustrated before me. I would love to have a prophet knock on my door. I would love to have God whisper in my ear one night. But the truth is... that is most likely not going to happen. With every anxious wringing of my stomach and every paranoid chill that runs down my spine, I know God is teaching me patience and he is teaching my contentment. "But God, I don't want to live at home forever!" "But God, I need money!!" "But God, I don't want to get stuck!" "But God, most of my friends know what they're doing!" I get in this, "But God" habit, and every time it happens, I feel his hand on my back, telling me to chill out. The perfectionist in me wants me to land the perfect job, and have that job carry me through my life. This perfectionist Bailee wants people to hear what I do and be impressed. She wants to excel and climb to ladder to ultimate success. She doesn't want to wait and waste time in careers that will not lead her to where she is meant to be. In the midst of this I hear God telling me to trust... to have patience... to be strong and courageous. As hard as it may be to swallow some days... I know that I am on His timeline, not mine. While I may feel insecure or impatient or unsure-- He is secure in me, and He knows the plans He has for me. WELL... Now I feel encouraged to go see Wonder Woman and feel empowered. Talk soon- Bails
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